Dad told me that last year Mom had lung cancer. She’s a non-smoker (he was the smoker). I have not a single happy memory in my childhood of Mom. She regularly would say things like “I’m not your real mother; I just found you in the trash one day and felt bad so I took you home” and other terrible things. I don’t know still how I feel about the news that she had and beat cancer.
@thedeltaflyer your mom really said that to you??? WTF is wrong with her?!
@Wetrix yeah, she also used to make me write pages of “I will not (whatever bad thing I did)” & then tape the pages on the front door so “everyone could see how bad” (her words) I’d been. When she took out Dad’s belt to whack me, I would start sobbing/begging not to be hit & she would laugh & say “oh come on, don’t be so dramatic” before I moved out, she still thought she made no mistakes raising me. So I have mixed feelings on this cancer news from Dad. :/
@thedeltaflyer huh. I don't want to comment because it's your mom and it's not my place but it sounds like she took her pleasure in your suffering.
I look at her the same way I look at my brother. I'm only related by blood to him because I had no say in the matter. Other then having the biological misfortune of being related to him I owe him nothing.
You deserved an entirely different mother than what you had.
@Wetrix thank you for your kind words and no worries about saying anything about my mother, as I’m not offended at all - you are right; if she didn’t take pleasure in the pain she was inflicting on me, she wouldn’t have laughed while doing it. It’s sickening. I just remind myself that I was a child; I could not escape; I had no choice. I survived as best as I could.
