Wetrix @Wetrix@social.privacytools.io
Joined Mar 2019
Quiet trepidation and reflection have been what's consuming me lately. I've been enjoying the summer ☀️and weather ☁️☁️☁️
Alot of reflection though on life & what it really means to live and not just exist. 🤔
The True Story of the Bridge on the River Kwai (2000) [536p] - One of the most misunderstood events in history. Contrary to the romanticized film version, the structures represent a period of terror, desperation, and death for over 16,000 POWs.
When I really think about it I wonder if we're not better off alone at times.
Almost everyone I know that's in a relationship is miserable or it's ruined their lives with divorces and massive debt.
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Just had a stressful time with mom. She has degenerative back disease and going blind.
She fell again and we had to get her up.
I'm terrified one day I'm going to wake up and find her not alive anymore.
I check on her every night after she falls asleep to make sure she's OK and still breathing. Silly I know but my dad died in his sleep so I can't help it.
I guess writing this helps me.
It's like debt. I owe money. And why? Because someone has told someone else that I owe them ones and zeros for services.
That I owe them numbers. THAT'S ALL IT IS. I OWE SOMEONE BINARY NUMBERS.
That's what life is reduced to? Working for numbers on a computer screen?
Whatever happened to living for the sake of living. Living to be alive. Living for yourself instead of numbers.
I want out so badly.
Good night fediverse 🌙 😴
I can't stop thinking about the fact that TBD human race has gotten it all wrong. That we've stopped LIVING.
We wake up, go to our self enslaved existance, come home and goto bed get up and do it over and over and over again.
We have gotten things so tragically wrong that the only thing we do now is exist to make someone else rich.
Well it's time for bed. Sweet sweet sleep and time to escape this world.
Good night fediverse 🌙 😴
I often think about being asleep in my own virtual world.
I remember this one Jim Carey episode where that happened to him.
If I could have that option I'd gladly be induced into a medical coma never to return.
My own private world over this one? I don't even have to think about it.
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https://youtu.be/pR0jthvIy9c - (2018) Programmed to Kill Part 123. Were the Zodiac Killer and the Unabomber the same person? video is of an episode of Unsolved Mysteries from 2004 that describes link between the two killers.
https://youtu.be/jwJ12XZTKYk - The Making of Sonic Adventure (2019) Tells the story of how SEGA attempted to revive the character which had made them a household name in the early 90's, in order to save the failing company and revolutionise the genre.
Working on the sky scale collections in #guildwars2
Some are definitely not easy and try your patience lol 😂
Then I thought you know what? Maybe I'm not living LIFE right. Do I have it all wrong? Am I a square trying to fit into a round hole?
Why do I screw things up even when I try not to? WTF is wrong with me? Is this what my existence is? Born to bleed until I finally die?
Anyway sorry to bother you guys with this. I'm going to try and finally sleep for the first time in over 24 hours.
Night 🌃
I just realize that I have to look in the mirror and realize what a broken and flawed individual I am. How I try to pick the the pieces up of my life and it's like picking up a shattered mirror that just cuts my hands and spills blood all over the floor. Like the harder I try to put it back together the more I bleed myself out.
I'm just healing to suffer again.
Sorry I haven't been around in a bit. I lost my job and it's a really rough time in my life atm.
At first I thought you know what, I'm fundamentally fucked up. There's something wrong with me. My life is just... well I don't want to get into it to much but losing my job and looking at my life right now has me really depressed.
I am my own worst enemy sometimes. Jesus here I was tired as hell yesterday and what do I end doing tonight? Staying up late. WTF is wrong with me? It's like my brains on a mission of self destruction or sometimes 🙄🥜
On that note I'm going to get what sleep I can and wake up and call myself a idiot. Good night fediverse 😁
Anyone else in here play guildwars2
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Been trying to get some gold. Going to try and start flipping on the TP and see what happens 🤔🏅
Today I can barely keep my eyes open 😴
One of those days where you wake up and would give anything to stay in bed and just roll over and go back to sleep.
Got through the first half of the day and now that, that hell fest is over I'm going to pass out 😴
Oh yeah I doodled this on my phone whilst bored at work lol 😂
On that note that's enough musings from my mind because I'm tired and going to bed 😂🛌
The one thing I'll talk about more later is the matrix theory of existence. I had to stop myself thinking about it because it was starting to drive me nuts lol 😆😁🌰🥜🌰🥜🌰🥜
Good night fediverse 🌙 😴
Joined Mar 2019
