Totally off topic from the rest of my account. Death trigger warning.
Death is such a haunting thought. Like think about it for a moment. Its terrified me for the better part of this year, less because of death and more because of not knowing what is after. Like if there's an afterlife, what is it? Is it something like here? Is it good and peaceful where you can be with your friends and family? Is it infinite torture and pain? Is it nothing? I don't know - it keeps me up at night. Just thinking.